I am just about to finish the autobiography of Bear Grylls -
Mud, Sweat and Tears. I always thought that celebrities write autobiographies
at the end of their lives, but clearly this is not the case. Bear Grylls is a
couple of years younger than me, but he has already achieved so much that he is
able to write a 500-page book about some of the major events in his life so
far. I guess if I do the same I might also have enough information to fill a 500-page
book, the only difference is that in my case I probably won’t find anyone interested in
reading it.
Yesterday after a short kite surfing session I had a beer
with a friend of mine who possible could also write a book about her life so
far. Although only 28 she has already did a few skydives, managed to get a
pilot’s license at a very young age, finished an engineering degree and is fast
becoming one of South Africa’s promising female paragliding pilots. Just like
Bear Grylls she too had a nasty fall that could've disabled her for life, but
she was lucky....or was “protected” as Bear prefers to refer to adventurers
making it to the other side where others have not been so fortunate. As always we were reflecting on our lives. Hers
is basically just starting, mine if I manage to live to 80, is halfway through.
Yet we both share a passion for the outdoors, for the thrill seeking lifestyle. Bear managed to create that for himself from an early age. Although she is still
looking ahead for ways to change her life is such a way that he can just cruise
from one take-off spot to the other, I am at a point in my life where I start
looking back on what I have achieved and constantly fear that there lies
nothing ahead for me. A recipe for depression to say the least, but I am sure
my autobiography does not have a last chapter yet.
I don’t think there is a much of a difference between the
three if us when it comes to finding the ingredients that keeps us alive. I think what made a difference in our lives is
the way we were brought up, the opportunities we got and the determination to
chase our dreams. For me as a child
being adventurous was not always easy. I grew up in a much protected
environment and being "responsible" looked better on a CV than being "adventurous". I
did what was expected of most children leaving school and that was to get an education
first. Travelling the world was a luxury white South African men did not have
those years, it was army or university.
Because there was money and my teachers thought I was intelligent enough
I went for the latter. Today I can boast with a couple of degrees and even
though that might look good on my CV, I do not have the certificates posted on
my wall. That is not what I needed to live. Yes, it puts bread on my plate, but
it never kept me alive. Being outdoors and seeking adventure keeps me going. My
job is a means to end, a way to pay for the things I need to be outside. The
qualifications secures that and for that reason I appreciate the fact that I had the opportunity to study.
After my disastrous bike trip a year ago I ventured out
less. I somehow realized that it is not about me any more, there are more people
in my life that keeps me going and that would prefer me to be around for a few
more years to come. Having a family, friends and children can make up for the
times I miss a good surf session or when I do not find time to renew my
paragliding license. Bear said that if he has to decide between being a hero or being a dad then the choice is obvious. He would rather spend time with his family. But
there will always be that search for adventure, for being outdoors, for doing
things that the average Joe doesn't do. Lately that feeling has gotten very
strong for me again. After each kite session I come alive. I feel I am a better
person when I am all psyched up. I can be a better husband, a better father and
a better friend when I still get that chance to do what I love. I have to work to support my family and my
hobbies, that is unfortunately so, but I don’t have to stop living. I do not
want to return home with a broken back or a wrecked motorbike any more, but I am
not going to sit and wait for my funeral to come either. No-one might be
interested in reading my autobiography, but I am for sure not going to stop
writing new chapters until the day I arrive sideways on screeching brakes at my
own funeral. So watch this space!